awwww I'm really sorry to hear about this :( I can totally empathise with your feelings. I'm so glad you sought help and are finding your way through the tunnel. You're always so supportive whenever anyone else is struggling. You always offered an email shoulder to me when things were bad, so I gladly offer you the same courtesy :)

I'm in the same scenario with my job (which I have moaned about on here before). Do you have any sort of plan formulated as to seeeking another job? I know your dream is to write and mine is photography/art so it's very difficult to struggle on year after year in a desk job that sucks all your creativity out!

Sending you lots of love xxxxxx