Fuel for the Inferiority Complex

[rusty_armour]

Man, I'm bummed out. I just received a submission for the RoS Fanfic Archive that's approximately 42,000 words. Now, while the thought of reading and editing this story seems a little daunting, that isn't what's depressing me. No, I'm depressed because I'm pretty sure the writer in question managed to write a story this long in only a few months. I've been working on my own fic for over two years and it's only about 60,000 words. If it was another writer, I might console myself with bitchy thoughts on how the work probably won't measure up given the short time span involved. However, everything this writer has written has been seriously good, so I don't even have that luxury.

If I were a better person, I would use this seething jealousy to drive my own ambition instead of allowing it to cripple me with self-doubt. Of course, if I were a better person, I wouldn't be seeing green in the first place...

Comments

[inkscribe.livejournal.com]

*hugs you*

Sometimes it helps me to know that famous/well-known author types (the sort who get published in books and are discussed in classes of one sort or another) go through the same kind of inner angst.

Then again, sometimes it doesn't. ;-)

So I won't try to commiserate more atm since ... well ... now isn't the time. I'll just nod sagely and agree completely with how this feels, and agree it sucks.

[rusty-armour.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the hug! :-) Actually, the reminder that famous/well-known author types also go through the same kind of inner angst does help -- on a moral level if nothing else. *g*

It's nice to know that someone else thinks this sucks. :-) I'm actually feeling a bit better about it today -- possibly because I've had time to accept the situation. And, though I hate to say it, I'm actually looking forward to reading the story because the premise sounds really good. Looks like the Power of Fic triumphs again and defeats the Evil Forces of Envy! *g*