Fuel for the Inferiority Complex

[rusty_armour]

Man, I'm bummed out. I just received a submission for the RoS Fanfic Archive that's approximately 42,000 words. Now, while the thought of reading and editing this story seems a little daunting, that isn't what's depressing me. No, I'm depressed because I'm pretty sure the writer in question managed to write a story this long in only a few months. I've been working on my own fic for over two years and it's only about 60,000 words. If it was another writer, I might console myself with bitchy thoughts on how the work probably won't measure up given the short time span involved. However, everything this writer has written has been seriously good, so I don't even have that luxury.

If I were a better person, I would use this seething jealousy to drive my own ambition instead of allowing it to cripple me with self-doubt. Of course, if I were a better person, I wouldn't be seeing green in the first place...

Comments

[tazzles.livejournal.com]

*BIG HUG*
Hey, I like what I've read of your writing so far. Don't discount how good a writer you are. I'm sure one day you'll get bit by a rabid bunny or hit on the head by a drugged up muse who'll help you speed your writing along.

[rusty-armour.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the hug and the encouragement. :-) I can write semi-quickly when the muse inspires me and/or I can see the end (of an installment or fic) in sight. However, I think I'd have to be drugged up too in order to write that much that quickly. Actually, I'd settle for being able to write at all at the moment. *g*