I Think I'm Losing It...Again

[rusty_armour]

My period snuck up on me this morning. The little bitch actually managed to take me by surprise. I woke up and wondered What the fuck is wrong with me now? Then I thought that there was something kind of familiar about the whole thing. A few seconds after that, it occurred to me that it might be menstruation and not, say, some other gynecological condition.

Usually, I know my period is coming because I'm psychotic. However, I missed the warning signs because I thought they were something else. I took my moodiness as being the products of a cold, guilt about my parents, and possibly SAD as it is February. In fact, I didn't think my period would be coming for at least another week, though I've totally blanked on when I last had it. I'd check my LJ, but I've made a point of not writing entries during that time of the month after my last PMS rant...Oooops. Sorry. But, hey, at least I'll have a way of keeping track of my cycle next month. *g*

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[radiogaga80.livejournal.com]

at least I'll have a way of keeping track of my cycle next month. *g*
make that you and everyone else with access to your LJ. *EG*

BTW... Always (of the bandages) has this new commercial slogan here, "Have a happy period" - I'm CONVINCED a man must have come up with that one!

[chrissie-m.livejournal.com]

I HATE that commercial!

[radiogaga80.livejournal.com]

And me with you!

[rusty-armour.livejournal.com]

I know. It's horrible, isn't it? I wonder if anyone ever writes to the company to complain about it. I would have thought they'd take it off the air if enough women complained.

[njc2007.livejournal.com]

I hate that commercial too. It *must* have been a man who came up with that slogan.

Yeah, I had a happy period once. It was when I thought I might be pregnant and didn't want to be. That is the one and only time I was ever happy to see the damnable thing.

[rusty-armour.livejournal.com]

I hate that commercial too. It *must* have been a man who came up with that slogan.

Yes, only a man could be that clueless, though it must be a man who doesn't know a lot of women. Most men seem to understand that periods are a BAD thing. *g*

Yeah, I had a happy period once. It was when I thought I might be pregnant and didn't want to be. That is the one and only time I was ever happy to see the damnable thing.

LOL! Yes, I would imagine it was an ecstatic period! *VBG*

[rusty-armour.livejournal.com]

at least I'll have a way of keeping track of my cycle next month. *g*

make that you and everyone else with access to your LJ. *EG*

Uh oh...I hadn't thought of that. I guess if everyone disappears on me this time next month, I'll know why! ;-)

BTW... Always (of the bandages) has this new commercial slogan here, "Have a happy period" - I'm CONVINCED a man must have come up with that one!

Either a man or a woman who's found some kind of wonder drug that alleviates all the woes of menstruation. However, I would have thought that the same woman would cash in on such a miracle cure, so I suspect you're right: a man did come up with that ludicrous slogan.

[avictoriangirl]

Ugh. I hate it when that happens, although like you, I usually know it's coming ahead of time. :P

Ha! I don't think I have seen this commercial that you speak of, and I'm glad I haven't.

[rusty-armour.livejournal.com]

Yes, it's very rare for me not to know it's coming. Usually, I'm painfully aware of it because of PMS. Unfortunately, it sounds like you have the same experience I do. :-(

Maybe the "Have a happy period" commercial hasn't been shown in the States. If you're lucky, it will stay that way! *g*

[radiogaga80.livejournal.com]

oooow... happy to serve: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=usOpWWQFJpo

[avictoriangirl]

OMG Have a happy period, ALWAYS? Yep. A man came up with that, definitely. *shudders* That's just wrong on so many levels.

Er, thanks for sharing ... I think. XP

[radiogaga80.livejournal.com]

The commercial we're having here is actually worse: women with big smiles plastered on their faces doing all the things they always do "because why should something like a period stop you from doing the things you always do?"
It makes me wanna kick things.

[avictoriangirl]

"because why should something like a period stop you from doing the things you always do?"

*boggles* What the?!! Uh, maybe because you have cramps so bad that you can't get out of bed? Or, because if you do get out of bed you might kill the bloody people who come up with these advertisements? *snorts*

[alysscarlet.livejournal.com]

I have to say that my period became a lot more 'happy' since I started using a Mooncup (menstrual cup). It's reduced my cramps (don't know how or why but I'm not the only person to have reported it) and because I can put it in in advance and not think about it once it is in it has reduced my mental stress as well.

I hope your hormones are kind to you this month! X

[rusty-armour.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you've found a solution that makes your period happier. The Mooncup sounds like a wonderful invention. :-)

To be honest, my main problem is mood swings. My cramps aren't really anything to write home about. In fact, I end up in more pain due to the migraine I get every cycle. In any case, the mood swings are usually worse for me before my period. I mean, I'll still be a little moody during it, but I don't think it's quite as bad...or maybe it just doesn't seem as bad because I know it will all be over in a few days. *g*

[alysscarlet.livejournal.com]

Ah. Oh dear. Yes, the mooncup wouldn't really help with the moodswings, sadly. I always have my bad hormonal day about 5 days before my period. I hope that yours get better....

[rusty-armour.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Alys. I think the worse of it's over. :-)

[dubghall.livejournal.com]

My worst moods are before my period too. For me -- I'll start to feel completely worthless and incompetent. Whenever I start feeling like that I have to check the calendar. And, right before the period, I go on a cleaning spree. On the upside, the place gets cleaned once a month...

[rusty-armour.livejournal.com]

I hear ya. I start questioning my worth, my abilities, my life choices, etc. However, I don't usually go on a cleaning spree. I mean, I might do a bit of tidying (probably in a vain effort to fool myself into believing that I'm in control of something), but it's never a full on cleaning spree. I wish it were because this place could use some serious attention. Unfortunately, I don't think that's going to happen on any significant level until late March - and that's only because my mom is staying with me in early April. *g*

[avictoriangirl]

Hello! I hope I'm not being too forward here since you don't know me, but I saw where you said the Mooncup helps with cramps. Do you know if it helps with really bad cramps? I had never heard of this before (I'm in the States) and it looks quite interesting, I'm thinking of trying it. :)

[crew4.livejournal.com]

Ha, you sound like me. The cramps are bad, but not super bad, but the mood swings are down right evil!! And with my partner away so much the mood swings have gone from being not just angry, but very depressing. A lot of self hate going on! Sucks real bad.

At least you've had an ok start to this one, but they're a bitch aren't they?!

[rusty-armour.livejournal.com]

My mood swings are so bad that I'm usually quite willing to take the cramps (which really aren't a problem in my case) if it means I might return to relative sanity again. Before it finally twigged that my mood swings were due to PMS, I thought I was bipolar. Really. I kid you not. Anywaaaaaay, I'm sorry that your own mood swings have resulted in depression and self hatred: that's worse than just being angry. :-( I hope the mood swings get a little better or your partner can be away a little less.

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[jackycomelately.livejournal.com]

Waves. We appear to be linked this month. Although I'm not just moody but spacey. It's like there is cotton in my brain. I totally spaced on something I was supposed to do for my mother today. It was fine but it might not have been. I join you in the dance of daughterly guilt! Although regarding your previous entry, I'm not sure I would have told my parents my VISA balance had they asked when I was running up quite a tab. I think I would have said I'm not telling you that! With a smile mind you. And, you know, I'll discuss most things without blinking, but I think that would have been a reflective protective response. I totally understand why you lied. In the past I have also run up Mr. VISA pretty high myself. As has most of North America, so don't beat yourself up about it. It is what it is, but that's all it is, you know? You don't want to do it because it can stop you from getting where you want to go, and stress you out, but release the shame! You're not a bad person because you like the shiny! We just have to learn to save up for the shiny! Sigh, but the shiny is just so...shiny.

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[rusty-armour.livejournal.com]

Waves. We appear to be linked this month. Although I'm not just moody but spacey. It's like there is cotton in my brain. I totally spaced on something I was supposed to do for my mother today. It was fine but it might not have been. I join you in the dance of daughterly guilt!

Spacey can be pretty annoying too, especially if it means forgetting a task or errand. Well, I've been feeling a little spacey the last couple of days in the sense that I've found it harder to concentrate. I don't know if it's been full cotton in my brain. Maybe just a cotton blend. ;-)

Although regarding your previous entry, I'm not sure I would have told my parents my VISA balance had they asked when I was running up quite a tab. I think I would have said I'm not telling you that! With a smile mind you. And, you know, I'll discuss most things without blinking, but I think that would have been a reflective protective response.

Well, I was able to get away with the smile for a little while. Whenever my dad would bring up the subject, I'd quickly say, "Don't ask!" However, when he made the generous offer to give me a loan, I wasn't really able to get away with that anymore. And I did try to suggest that my dad just lend me a bit of money, but that wasn't going to fly. My parents wanted all of the debt cleared, saying it was better for me to be paying my dad than the bank (with its insane interest rates). Again, it was kind of hard to argue with their logic. *g*

I totally understand why you lied. In the past I have also run up Mr. VISA pretty high myself. As has most of North America, so don't beat yourself up about it. It is what it is, but that's all it is, you know? You don't want to do it because it can stop you from getting where you want to go, and stress you out, but release the shame! You're not a bad person because you like the shiny! We just have to learn to save up for the shiny! Sigh, but the shiny is just so...shiny.

Well, it wasn't all shiny, though there were certainly more shiny purchases on the credit card than there should have been. In fact, it was probably due to the shiny (originally, anyway) that I got into this mess in the first place. Anywaaaaay, it does make me feel better that so many North Americans do wrack up credit card debt. And, as you say, it is what it is, but that's all it is. :-)